Nearly 10 years after graduating, I suddenly had to be hospitalized due to some illness. A chance reunion with an old classmate who was a nurse at the hospital. During college, I secretly loved her and started being hospitalized with my heart pounding. A selfish delusion of the nurse = lust had gotten out of control, and when I made a mischievous request that I couldn't do when I was a student, I said, 'It's really not good,' and secretly slipped into my bed while I was on night patrol.